It’s nice to be back in the Twelveswood again. I’ve spent so many suns in Limsa Lominsa lately that I’ve started to get used to the smell. I’m not sure I like that. What if that scent is on me? I hope it washes off in the clean water here.
I haven’t been able to keep track of Nahue lately either. I hope he’s doing well. I have no doubts that Isilme will be harsh on him. She takes the role of protector very seriously, and will force him to do the same. As for me, I still feel as Nel isn’t going all out. She knows I’ve progressed beyond what she expected. Nel is probably the only woman I know who could stand up to her. If I can’t at least match Nel, I will never defeat my enemy. I hope she knows how serious I am about this.
There was a gathering earlier this sun, in the Twelveswood. It’s the reason I returned. Most everyone was already gathered when I arrived. Normally I’d have been the first one, but I haven’t been home. There were so many there that I didn’t recognize. I was attempting to put the voices I hear over the pearl with the faces I didn’t recognize, but not many were talking when I slipped in the back of the camp.
I wasn’t sure what to expect from the gathering, but now I feel a little excited for the future of this group. We need a place to gather together, a place like the Everwatch HQ. I think with that, things will begin to fall into place. I think most of the others understand that as well. Lady Eva stressed that this was not her trying to revive Everwatch, but… Perhaps that’s exactly what should happen. Some direction, a purpose, perhaps a reason to exist that I’m not ashamed of. I really hope this happens, and soon.
The issue of donations was brought up. As badly as I want this to happen, I don’t know that I can donate much at all. Nahue has gil, I suppose I could ask him for some. I hope he will understand what this means to me. I know I met him after Everwatch had disbanded.
But then, and this eve had made this apparent, things won’t ever be as they were. Everyone was already grouped up as I arrived. Nel and Isilme sat together and Shiro was off to the side with Flandre. In the distance I saw a few people I didn’t recognize, and next to them was Aysun, Selene, Eva, and a man I don’t know. I assumed this must be this “Fenix” I hear them talk to and talk about over the pearl. Next to me, a little ways away, was a woman I had never seen before as well.
This was my first time seeing Selene in over five cycles. I wanted to talk to her. I have no idea what I would have said, but I really wanted to. It was the first time I had seen an old dear friend in so long. She hadn’t changed much, but I have. I guess I wanted to talk to her, and to Lady Eva, because I want to know if these changes have made me more than I used to be, or less.
When Lady Eva was finished speaking, most people talked in their groups. I was going to wait for a free moment to approach Selene, but eventually Nel approached me first. We discussed the training and a duel next sun. I made sure she knew I was serious. We only talked for a bit, and for whatever reason she urged me to go speak with other people. I’ve nearly become a forest hermit in the last cycle. Any social skills I had have deteriorated to the point where I feel inept at speaking to people as a whole.
I looked over the people remaining. It was Lady Eva and Shiro in what looked like a very serious discussion with Flandre. I was not about to interrupt that. And then it was Selene and Aysun talking to two other people I don’t know. Those were my only options. Maybe I should have pushed my way into that conversation, but it just seemed like it would have turned out poorly. Maybe Selene didn’t see me. Or maybe she still doesn’t care to speak with me still, like back before the red moon fell. I suppose it’s only been a moon or two for her. I decided it was best if I just left. They all seemed busy, and I had things I needed to do.
So I set out to make a patrol in my traveling clothes. It’s probably fortunate that I didn’t encounter anything. Not yet anyway.